I can't help myself, but just look towards you.
I can't move a step, but just wait upon you.
I can no longger run, I can no longger hide.
Because I am lost, and I need you

Don't wanna go through storm without you

I have been running
I have been searching
But I did not see anything

I have been blind
I have been lost
And still I am still wondering on my own.

I don't want to leave but you made me to,
I don't wanna go out there but you force me to,
I don't wanna walk in the storm but you lead me on.
I don't wanna get my shoe wet but you insist me to.

I was afriad, but u assure me of safety.
I was so far, but you pulled me back
I was lame but now you heal me.
I was affraid of the storm, but you comfort me.

Now I am in your wings of protection.
Living under your shadow of salvation.
And I don't wanna go throught the storm without you again.

Another Day without my dearest..

Spending a weekend alone... It is pretty unusual for me. However, it is not because of my dearest is not with me this weekend but then i choose to stay home and rest. I have invitations to go shopping and stuff... I was just too lazy...

So, this morning church service was awesome! Was very inspired by pastors preaching. Truely inspired to be a better leader to do something bigger than life...

I guess nothing much to write for today... plain day...

Earth Hour!

O Yea! it is my first time participating in earth hour! Now i can feel how cold my house is without light! But that is not the story!

There we a lot of celebration out there. I am just too tired to join the crowd. I would prefer to stay home and rest. But the catch is... I am alone at home this weekend! Outch...

I spend first half an hour walking alone in the park and next half...in front of my laptop in the dark!

yuppie! 10 more minutes i'll hv my lights bak!!

more than usual!

There are so much to do today! And I am still not done with my task! There are times where u just wish you can fats forward you clock. But there are also times where you wish you can slow down your clock so that you have longer time! Yes! That is happening to me right now. I am trying so hard, but it just doesn’t seem to work this way. Many times, I could not understand how a researcher can stay in the lab for hours and most of the times stay till late night to complete their task. How can you be so productive for such a long hour? I seriously do not understand till today! I was so caught up with my research that I almost stayed 9 hours in front of the computer and took less than an hour for lunch! Today, it is the first time I actually leave my lab at 7.40pm which is like pitch dark out there due to the rain. Hungry was not in my dictionary at all. By the time I get in my car.. I could not even position my neck properly and my back was aching badly. Well, it will not be the first but many to come I guess… So many task to be done and time is really short… I am still studying my results now… I need some sleep!! Help!!

A poem of nothing

Drip, drop,
The rain is falling on my table top.
Hop, hop
There goes the little frog.
Tick, tock,
That is the sound of my clock.
Owh Gosh
Here go, I am writing my blog!

Just another day

Everyday is full of waiting...
When I hit the bed...I whish I can wake up late..
when I drag myself up.. I just can't wait to get back in again.
Trying to greet the sunshine while waiting for my breakfast,
But my head just can't stop thinking about my next task.
On my way to work, I am just waiting to get there..
When I get on my work, I am waiting for my results.
While waiting for my results, I am waiting for my next paycheck.
While waiting for all that, my stomach is waiting for lunch!
After lunch.. I just can't wait to complete my work...while doing that...I am just waiting to go home!

On my way home... I was stuck in the jam...
While I was in the jam, My stomach is waiting for dinner...
When dinner comes... I am just waiting for a day where I can do some excercise...

Days just fly by with the same old routine... workout? Just never workout...
I spend almost 1 hour everyday stuck in the jam.... How much waiting can that be? Waiting to reach home, waiting to go to the ladies, waiting to greet my dog, waiting to get my rest, waiting to clean my house, waiting to... argh I dunno what...

Long time no blog

It has been a while since I last step into this page! Wow! My brain is that empty!

Why? Must common sense be taught?

Driving is not just getting there, but also to keep your manner and morale while driving. Laws are just there to guide, but is it really take to monitor you? That, I do not know. One fine day as I was on my way to work, I say a driver (drove a pretty good car) threw rubbish out from his window. So? The richer you are does not mean the more civilize you are…. So what about driving and keep your eyes and ears open? On the same day, an ambulance passing by. It was an emergency ride, so most of the car went to the side and then chase after the ambulance as usual. But one particular saga (which the speed is bad) was trying so hard to race in front of the ambulance! Hello!!! One life is dying there! So, is this ignorance? Or we are not well educated? Sometimes, you just feels like screaming at those people..but then, you just can’t…. Outch…

A friend to Remember

Gina, it one of the kindest friend I ever known. She is always happy and positive. She is a very strong and courages woman. And not to forget she is a very good friend. I never thought that the last time I visited her will be my last, but indeed yes. She have went back with the Lord yestersday 5.45am. I will miss her a lot. It is hard to accept... but then yeah, she have gone home... She is only 29year old.... sigh...

Goodbye Gina...

Happy Chinese New Year!

It is the year of Ox! Yeah! It is my final year to collect ang pow this year. Oh..sobbie!!!

Anyway, this new year is a year where we reunite with our old friend. When i touched down on thursday evening, my dad told me a friend of my drop by to visit the day before. It was a friend whom i hv not seen for almost 5 yeears!!! And I have lost his contact number.... So thanks to FB i manage to locate him once again! This happened to my dad too... as we were having branch in a coffee shop, a friends of his suddenly called him... they have not seen each other for like 30 over years!!! O my!!!! What a awesome year!!!

There are still lots of things to follow up and precious time to recall back all the classic memories... :)
Happy Chinese Moo Moo year!!!!!

Masters..masters... it is not like degree!

Life have been pretty challenging lately. There is no more free time to shop, free time to do my own things and free time to think of myself..goodness! I have to be in the lab from 10am to 6pm from monday to friday. However, 6 is not the proper time to leave the lab....because no body leaves and sometimes work do not permit me to leave! So, 10 am to 7 pm or later is my time where I leave and by the time i reach home after dinner... the earliest is 10pm and on average.... 12am! Goodness!!!

I am not living a good lifestyle lately...bad food time and late sleeping time!!! Outch..and no exercise!!! I just could find a time to hit the gym!!! My goodness!!!!

But the amazing thing is that...out of all the tiring days, church wide prayer meeting is the best cure to me to really find comfort and rest...

Just lately.. I finally change my habit of my daily devotion... instead of getting to it at night...i move it to morning... it was great...awake and hungry...heheh

Up and down...left and right!

Yay! I am done with my RA application and today I am officially attending my lab as a Research assistant! WOW! Dispite of waiting for the slow reply from the admin, which is very normal, I am currently reading up on my project and exploring my new programme.

Sadly, it was not as good as I expected... I thought this uni is really upgrading... yeah the library is kind of well equiped. But then, my lab is way off... what is the purpose to give me the best computer in the market without an internet connection? How to do research? Outch... Still not there yet huh... The best I can do now is buy my own USB modem and get my own wireless to get my self effective... It is hopeless to really wait for the upgrade... I'll never get on with my work... Sometimes, this does makes me feel like letting go all of it and just do something else... but then... it is always my dream to persue masters... Why la why!

HAPPY 2009!

Yay! Its a new year! And I don't even have the time to reflect on my 2008 and plan for my 2009.... All I can think of is how to settle my masters registration and when can I satrt work and how do i work and when can I get my pay??.... Really need it for building Fund....Gods house...and also my house... Sobbie! There were so much to do and so complicated. I even have to force myself to run about getting the application solve eventhough I am badly attacked with flu, swollen face, tooth ache and blocked ear... Thanks to chinese herbal tea...my swell hv gone down and flu is getting better...but my ear is still blocked!

So what is ahead of 2009? OMG!!!! My wedding is this YEAR!! Wow! 10 more months and there I go! One beautiful bride...young and beautiful one..* cought**cough* 2009... it is definitely going to be a great year.