Gloomy Christmas...

So what is with this Christmas? Hmmm... I didn join any countdown on the eve... We were all in church. On Christmas day, my faince hv to go to church, so i spend time with his mom cooking and preparing for the pot luck in his aunts house later in the evening. We did not go out at all cas he was tired and he slept the whole afternoon. In the evening we drop by Kiera's full moon and the head to the hospital to visit one of my friend who is suffering with cancer... SAD yeah.

So Christmas ended with a dinner and then sleep... outch!

On the 26th morning, I travel back to Penang to celebrate Christmas with my family. I was full of excitement and I can't wait to greet my parents and sister. I has been 3 years I didn't make it back for Christmas due to studies...but this time... I HAVE THE TIME TO GO BAK HOME!!!

As I was about to reach Penang, I gave my dad a call, all the excitement turns into worries, uncertainties and sadness... My dad jz recieved the news that my grandpa is admitted in the the ICU! Argh! Why must this happen? The moment I reach the bus station, we hop in to the car and get going to Seberang Jaya Hospital. We couldn't do much but just prayed for miracle to happen because we were not allowed to go in to give him a visit. After the doctor stabalizes his condition, we rush in to the ICU to see him.. He was a sleep with pipes all over his mouth and nose. He was in a pretty critical condition. The doctor said that his gall bladder has burst and effected his intestine and kidney... Argh! WHy!

The doctor waited until his blood pressure stabalizes and then performed an operation... So.. the BBQ party goes on with a sad heart... but we try to spend as much time together as possible and prayed for miracle to happen...

Until today, he is still in ICU... it is still uncertain how it is going to be.... My mom is seeking her voodoo..which predicts deaths.. I am believing in God to bring my grandpas health back to normal... Miracle shall happen... It will happen.... I miss my grandpa....

Fly so fast!

It is almost a month now since I completed my degree. I have been in the holiday mode till today. Ah well, my holiday started with an awesome trip to Singapore for Asia Conference. Then, I went back home to spend some precious time with my family and then finally, my first plane flight adventure! I flew to Kota Kinabalu!! YAY! Counting week by week, time flies really fast with all the unforgettable moments with family and friends. After all this wonderful holiday, it is time for Theen Kin and me to stay focus on our new house and what about wedding? GOSH! We almost forget! We were so packed with activities, serving, and me going crazy over choosing the right topic for my masters till the planning for wedding totally got out of our mind! We only come to realise that after church yesterday while we were settling our house lighting. OUTCH!

But then praise God! It is really a great blessings to get good deals through out our whole renovation even though some unwanted things happened. We manage to get our lights and fan with a very low price ( but then, 3 lights broke…SOBBIE!). Besides that, we got our stove for more than 50% discount for a super expensive stove that we were eying for and Theen Kin’s family bless him with refrigerator and washing machine! Awesome huh?

Now the lights and fans are all up and it is time to shop for curtains and furniture!

KOta Kinabalu

12th December 2008, 4.00am, was my first ever ride on a plane! I was so excited and yet sleepy the moment I got my tickets and checked in my bags. My heart beats so fast, that i don't even know what sleepy means.

Walking in to the plane, owh! I was nicely greeted by sweet air stewardes. Walking towards my seat with great exciement...but then it droped a little... the seat was not as big and bus seat... Its ok, I got the window seat! As the plane moves, my heart jumps with excitement! And it accelerate, and my heart beats even faster! And the off!!! YAY! I am flying!!!

I reached KK around 6.30 am and it was super bright! I was like hey, I will be still in bed in KL at this time! But the life there...almost everybody is super awake! So , my first destination was to eat pork noodle with a lot of porky stuff inside.. Then head home to sleep... Later in the afternoon, we went to UMS for a lottle visit and then to 1 Borneo. Yeah it was a good place... 50 percent of KL shopping mall!

In the evening, we have home coooked food from my boyfriends' friend mother! Awh! Superb! The next day was the wedding day of my boyfriends friend...

On sunday, We went to gaya street for breakfast ( fisf noodle- noodle make of fish) Then do a little quick shopping there. They sets up stalls selling lots of stuff Just like out night market. After breakfast, we went to church. Then after that, we head for ngau chap ( beef noodle with beef stuff inside). It was too beefy for me.... but it is nice! After lunch, we head to Karambunai for the beach. We played banana boat...but i could nt join them... So i followed the boat that drag the banana boat! LOL!

After KAramBunai we went to dunno where for coconut pudding ( Coconut jelly in side coconut fruit) and oyster bakar! It was superb! After that, we went to gayang for seafood dinner! It was a wonderful dinner...all the seafood it really really fresh!

Monday...sad to say.. it is the day to leave kk...SOBBIE!!!! It was so sad that we almost missed out plane home! We checked in late and we have to run all the way to terminal!!! Believe it! Yeas! We ran!!! We were one of the last to enter the plane! HEHE! O yeah, before that, we had breakfast with pastor Daud.. we ate pai mien...some noodle la... and then he head to philipline market to do somemore shopping before we leave for airport..

Well, really a big thanks to the Sabah friends who are so helpful and great! Our trip there was so well taken care of by them... drive us around, provide a place to stay and blessing us with meals and warm friendship! I really missed the time there!

I am Flying!

So much of thinking, I think I will just put it aside for a moment and just head for my holiday! Yeah, it is going to be my 1st plane flight! Yay! I am so so so excited!

Brain Exhausted

Too much of thinking can sometimes makes you whole body tired. Yeah. Eventhough I have my 8 hour sleep but then I am still tired. I am seriously do not know what to do... Yeah the lecturers are all very nice to provide my with ideas and reading materials. I just can't decide now...

Left Or Right?

Life is pretty must set in the way that I wanted it to be, to continue masters after my degree to see how far I can go and also to get a better understanding of an application of a physics field. There is no point getting to know all the theory but not applying it. As I was completing my degree, the plan of the vision begins to work. It was all perfect and right until last week.

Now I have one professor and one doctor offering me place to do masters in UM. Well, I do not know who to pick. Both have their own advantages and I have interest on both also. Well, for people to choose, of course they will go for professor! Yeah he is a very experience professor and yeah, he is good in knowledge. But truly, no body understand anything in his class but score A. So how? I do not know. There are other complain as well. How true is it I do not know…

I am now left confused and suppressed. I do not know what I want to do. Sometimes I wonder is this the right choice? They approach me personally… I did not ask… well, it is a great blessing but GOD! Why?

Yeah, this is arise and build season and it is like a season where problems starts to bombard you one by one. First, car tyre crack. Then, my masters is uncertain, and then now my phone button is not functioning well! WHY? ! Help me God…

Another Day in Penang

Hmmm... I am in my usual hibernation mode back home. Lazy to hang out, lazy to meet up and lazy to move. But then it is the best time for me to rest and reflect back my life... the bad thing is i begin to think a lot and sometimes, it will just go out of the world... and that is when the idea of creativity comes in!

Today, my stomach is always hungry... I just feels like eating! Argh! HELP!

Beautiful Sunday!

Sunday! time to go to church! It is not any normal Sunday because this time my sister actually followed me to church (which he hates to last time)! The service was great and the message was awesome! Towards the end of the service, pastor prayed. My sister responded for alter call and there she goes! She slide back to God! It was so awesome. I was filled with joy and a great asurance from God. I could not hold my tear and it just flow.. I cried and cried as pastor prayed. The holy spirit move so mightily in the service. I am so touched, so so blessed and so so refreshes by the presence of God. Yeah, life have been bad for me this few months as i have to go through a lot of challanges and rejection but then soaking in the pressence of God does cures all dissappointment... and I am looking for more!

Yeah bad tampered me... I am not very sure why but then I am having alot of mood swings and stress... I do not know why but then.... I am just not happy... I just got lost and my brain just fly off to somewhere.... I just want to be with God and no body else for now..... Just me and God!

My Masters in Physics

Getting a masters in physics is like my 101 thing to do before I die. I do not want to live my life with regrets. It is great to have a crazy challange in life. When you look back... yeah people may earn more money and much more richer than I am but then hey.... I did something challanging and it is a life experience rather than following the typical rule of life! It is deffinitely not a waste of money because I am paid as a research assistant while doing my masters and i do not have to pay a single cent for it! On top of that I can contribute to my epf... how fun is that? Yeah.... earning big buck is really not my thing now but then of course I will do my part to save what I am suppose to. I am not stupid and I don't just spend as if i don't have a brain!

Anyway, it is hard to see myself doing masters because I was not a very smart person but then taking this challange will push me up further to see where I can go! Smart eh!