Gloomy Christmas...

So what is with this Christmas? Hmmm... I didn join any countdown on the eve... We were all in church. On Christmas day, my faince hv to go to church, so i spend time with his mom cooking and preparing for the pot luck in his aunts house later in the evening. We did not go out at all cas he was tired and he slept the whole afternoon. In the evening we drop by Kiera's full moon and the head to the hospital to visit one of my friend who is suffering with cancer... SAD yeah.

So Christmas ended with a dinner and then sleep... outch!

On the 26th morning, I travel back to Penang to celebrate Christmas with my family. I was full of excitement and I can't wait to greet my parents and sister. I has been 3 years I didn't make it back for Christmas due to studies...but this time... I HAVE THE TIME TO GO BAK HOME!!!

As I was about to reach Penang, I gave my dad a call, all the excitement turns into worries, uncertainties and sadness... My dad jz recieved the news that my grandpa is admitted in the the ICU! Argh! Why must this happen? The moment I reach the bus station, we hop in to the car and get going to Seberang Jaya Hospital. We couldn't do much but just prayed for miracle to happen because we were not allowed to go in to give him a visit. After the doctor stabalizes his condition, we rush in to the ICU to see him.. He was a sleep with pipes all over his mouth and nose. He was in a pretty critical condition. The doctor said that his gall bladder has burst and effected his intestine and kidney... Argh! WHy!

The doctor waited until his blood pressure stabalizes and then performed an operation... So.. the BBQ party goes on with a sad heart... but we try to spend as much time together as possible and prayed for miracle to happen...

Until today, he is still in ICU... it is still uncertain how it is going to be.... My mom is seeking her voodoo..which predicts deaths.. I am believing in God to bring my grandpas health back to normal... Miracle shall happen... It will happen.... I miss my grandpa....

Fly so fast!

It is almost a month now since I completed my degree. I have been in the holiday mode till today. Ah well, my holiday started with an awesome trip to Singapore for Asia Conference. Then, I went back home to spend some precious time with my family and then finally, my first plane flight adventure! I flew to Kota Kinabalu!! YAY! Counting week by week, time flies really fast with all the unforgettable moments with family and friends. After all this wonderful holiday, it is time for Theen Kin and me to stay focus on our new house and what about wedding? GOSH! We almost forget! We were so packed with activities, serving, and me going crazy over choosing the right topic for my masters till the planning for wedding totally got out of our mind! We only come to realise that after church yesterday while we were settling our house lighting. OUTCH!

But then praise God! It is really a great blessings to get good deals through out our whole renovation even though some unwanted things happened. We manage to get our lights and fan with a very low price ( but then, 3 lights broke…SOBBIE!). Besides that, we got our stove for more than 50% discount for a super expensive stove that we were eying for and Theen Kin’s family bless him with refrigerator and washing machine! Awesome huh?

Now the lights and fans are all up and it is time to shop for curtains and furniture!

KOta Kinabalu

12th December 2008, 4.00am, was my first ever ride on a plane! I was so excited and yet sleepy the moment I got my tickets and checked in my bags. My heart beats so fast, that i don't even know what sleepy means.

Walking in to the plane, owh! I was nicely greeted by sweet air stewardes. Walking towards my seat with great exciement...but then it droped a little... the seat was not as big and bus seat... Its ok, I got the window seat! As the plane moves, my heart jumps with excitement! And it accelerate, and my heart beats even faster! And the off!!! YAY! I am flying!!!

I reached KK around 6.30 am and it was super bright! I was like hey, I will be still in bed in KL at this time! But the life there...almost everybody is super awake! So , my first destination was to eat pork noodle with a lot of porky stuff inside.. Then head home to sleep... Later in the afternoon, we went to UMS for a lottle visit and then to 1 Borneo. Yeah it was a good place... 50 percent of KL shopping mall!

In the evening, we have home coooked food from my boyfriends' friend mother! Awh! Superb! The next day was the wedding day of my boyfriends friend...

On sunday, We went to gaya street for breakfast ( fisf noodle- noodle make of fish) Then do a little quick shopping there. They sets up stalls selling lots of stuff Just like out night market. After breakfast, we went to church. Then after that, we head for ngau chap ( beef noodle with beef stuff inside). It was too beefy for me.... but it is nice! After lunch, we head to Karambunai for the beach. We played banana boat...but i could nt join them... So i followed the boat that drag the banana boat! LOL!

After KAramBunai we went to dunno where for coconut pudding ( Coconut jelly in side coconut fruit) and oyster bakar! It was superb! After that, we went to gayang for seafood dinner! It was a wonderful dinner...all the seafood it really really fresh!

Monday...sad to say.. it is the day to leave kk...SOBBIE!!!! It was so sad that we almost missed out plane home! We checked in late and we have to run all the way to terminal!!! Believe it! Yeas! We ran!!! We were one of the last to enter the plane! HEHE! O yeah, before that, we had breakfast with pastor Daud.. we ate pai mien...some noodle la... and then he head to philipline market to do somemore shopping before we leave for airport..

Well, really a big thanks to the Sabah friends who are so helpful and great! Our trip there was so well taken care of by them... drive us around, provide a place to stay and blessing us with meals and warm friendship! I really missed the time there!

I am Flying!

So much of thinking, I think I will just put it aside for a moment and just head for my holiday! Yeah, it is going to be my 1st plane flight! Yay! I am so so so excited!

Brain Exhausted

Too much of thinking can sometimes makes you whole body tired. Yeah. Eventhough I have my 8 hour sleep but then I am still tired. I am seriously do not know what to do... Yeah the lecturers are all very nice to provide my with ideas and reading materials. I just can't decide now...

Left Or Right?

Life is pretty must set in the way that I wanted it to be, to continue masters after my degree to see how far I can go and also to get a better understanding of an application of a physics field. There is no point getting to know all the theory but not applying it. As I was completing my degree, the plan of the vision begins to work. It was all perfect and right until last week.

Now I have one professor and one doctor offering me place to do masters in UM. Well, I do not know who to pick. Both have their own advantages and I have interest on both also. Well, for people to choose, of course they will go for professor! Yeah he is a very experience professor and yeah, he is good in knowledge. But truly, no body understand anything in his class but score A. So how? I do not know. There are other complain as well. How true is it I do not know…

I am now left confused and suppressed. I do not know what I want to do. Sometimes I wonder is this the right choice? They approach me personally… I did not ask… well, it is a great blessing but GOD! Why?

Yeah, this is arise and build season and it is like a season where problems starts to bombard you one by one. First, car tyre crack. Then, my masters is uncertain, and then now my phone button is not functioning well! WHY? ! Help me God…

Another Day in Penang

Hmmm... I am in my usual hibernation mode back home. Lazy to hang out, lazy to meet up and lazy to move. But then it is the best time for me to rest and reflect back my life... the bad thing is i begin to think a lot and sometimes, it will just go out of the world... and that is when the idea of creativity comes in!

Today, my stomach is always hungry... I just feels like eating! Argh! HELP!

Beautiful Sunday!

Sunday! time to go to church! It is not any normal Sunday because this time my sister actually followed me to church (which he hates to last time)! The service was great and the message was awesome! Towards the end of the service, pastor prayed. My sister responded for alter call and there she goes! She slide back to God! It was so awesome. I was filled with joy and a great asurance from God. I could not hold my tear and it just flow.. I cried and cried as pastor prayed. The holy spirit move so mightily in the service. I am so touched, so so blessed and so so refreshes by the presence of God. Yeah, life have been bad for me this few months as i have to go through a lot of challanges and rejection but then soaking in the pressence of God does cures all dissappointment... and I am looking for more!

Yeah bad tampered me... I am not very sure why but then I am having alot of mood swings and stress... I do not know why but then.... I am just not happy... I just got lost and my brain just fly off to somewhere.... I just want to be with God and no body else for now..... Just me and God!

My Masters in Physics

Getting a masters in physics is like my 101 thing to do before I die. I do not want to live my life with regrets. It is great to have a crazy challange in life. When you look back... yeah people may earn more money and much more richer than I am but then hey.... I did something challanging and it is a life experience rather than following the typical rule of life! It is deffinitely not a waste of money because I am paid as a research assistant while doing my masters and i do not have to pay a single cent for it! On top of that I can contribute to my epf... how fun is that? Yeah.... earning big buck is really not my thing now but then of course I will do my part to save what I am suppose to. I am not stupid and I don't just spend as if i don't have a brain!

Anyway, it is hard to see myself doing masters because I was not a very smart person but then taking this challange will push me up further to see where I can go! Smart eh!

Asia Conference

The most beautiful thing in life is the touch of God! This Asia Conference was the first ever conference held by Pastor Kong Hee bringing together great speakers like Phil Pringle and wife, A.R Bernard, Benny Hinn and ulf Ekmen. It was great!

All the hall were so packed with people from all around Asia and other places. It was amazing and awesome! All the speakers brings in the word of season and I am greatly impacted by their works and words!

Ps Kong has actually open up our mind to see people around us, the young and old, earthquake victims in China and the disable. It really wakes me up to see the great works of Pastor Kong how he manage to built a church regardless of the type of people. I was amaze to see a less fortunate little girl act on the stage. She was great... she is just like any other girl! This really open up my eyes to see beyond my suroundings and to see this people who are less fortunate. They do have dreams like us and they too can be like us. Some times it is just us and our pride that we cast them aside. We are all suppose to love people with compassion.

The craziest thing that actually happened to me is that when Pastor prayed and ask us who wants to reach out beyond the four wall of the church.. I first felt heavy for abused children... which i have in mind to reach out to but hvn take any action and that was not so bad...but then God suddenly press another thing into my heart... He show me that I can never take another step is i do not first feel the same way (compassion) towards my own family members. I never like my causins from my mothers side. I always think that they are poor, filthy, dirty and stupid. Then God rebuke me that night by asking me to bless them as how i am to bless the abused. Be a friend and bless the family with RM200 of stuff or cash!!! I was like WHAT THE!!!! Yeah it was hard. But then when i shared it with my sister, we found that yeah... God will always put up front the matter that you are trying to compressed and hide. He was just teaching me to love and be a blessing... first from people closest to me.

It was so amazing and so shocking and so terrifying that I came back home with bad fever, bloody flu and bloody flem and headache...argh! Didn drank enough water through out the conference ... sobbie!!!!! But then I came back with a blessed heart!

God is always good!

late night in startbucks (part 2)

As I was about to leave starbucks last night, I heard so explosion sound coming from outside..hmmm... I wonder what it going on. So, i took a little peep outside and there it was!!! beautiful fireworks from sunway lagoon! Standing there smiling alone...ah.... just beautiful.

After the fire works... it was about 11pm. So i have to walked up to the main entrance to wait for my boyfriend to fetch me. On my way there, it was really tempting for me to go to the loo... but then the mall is close and what can happen in the loo? Argh... I have good imagination.. So i decide to walk to the main entrance without going to the loo... so, the funny thing is this... I got lost in a closed shopping mall! It was really scary but i walked too and fro before i could figure out where I am. Phew! I found my way out but then.... I need the loo!!!!

Late night in starbucks!

So another entry.... writting from starbucks! Looks like Christmas is around the corner. Starbucks is playing Christmas type of jazz now. With my favourite coffee...here i am writting! It is 10.30 pm now and guess what..the light in Sunway Pyramid is all out... but then here is starbucks... people are still enjoying their sips and chat! I used to be at home at thins time when I was a kid...but kids today.... their parents are pempering them with Starbucks and donuts at this time... by the way...there is two very cute malay kid in front of me... hmmm... they can help me but just enjoy looking and playing with me... haha.. they are really cute with their big round eyes! Owh..... their dad is like trying to block em... hhaha!!!

Looks like things have been very much diffent now compare to my childhood era.... well... kids are really pampered with really good stuff now.. awh! ENVY!!! haha!

Exam Just ended last friday. And it was my last exam...the after exam celebration? Sigh...not as grand as I think so... We didn't really celebrated... until today... but then the weird thing is that, i suddenly feel directionless... yeah i know i hv a confirmed place for my masters ald but then... it is like i do not hv anything to do all of a sudden besides normal church admin stuff and wedding prep! Oh man!!!

haha!! So what is next? Well, I am getting myself ready for my wedding now...really need to indulge myself in good and healthy food...no more junkies...and also good exercise... i really hope it works! Due to my lazyness.... i have to pray hard!!!

So... I am really bored now and i do not know what to do... still waiting for my transport back home.... sobbie!!!!!!

Stand

Our life is filled with different season. We have season of breakthrough, season of stretching, season of prospering, season of what ever you name it! No matter what it is, God is always there to prepare a way for us to go through. It may not even be a smooth way, but then God will never allow us to be consume by fire or overflowed by water. Through the fire we will not be scorch by the flame! God grace is always great!

Every time during exam season, it is my season of breakdown. But then I keep pressing unto God! His promise is always through that I will always be above and not beneath. But one thing, if i know for sure that Gods promises is true, why am I still facing fear and doubts? This is my final exam, and it is up to me to make it or break it! It is the time for me to STAND! Time for me to stand and be strong and to know God is always there with me! I will never allows the devils doubt to overcome me but the faith of God to carry me!
Besides my exam, this is the season of arise and built for CHCKL! Yeah we are all ecxited and yet worried. Many things I have to go through wwith my fiance to built our house and to save for our wedding. With the amount of pledge, It is so stretching. This is the time....I will be strong and be brave and never break down! Time for us to arise!

There is a time for healing
There's a time for all purposes under the sun
There's a time for laughter
There's a time to let go and a time to hold on

So we are here,
but why are we waiting
Why are we acting like dead men walking
The time has arrived
For us to arise
Joining our hands united together
This is our time to be strong
This is our time to rise up
To stand and be counted
This is our time to believe
To know in our God we are free
Let the world know to Him we belong

Lord capture our hearts now
Drown out the pleasures and treasures that bind us
Give us your courage
To be strong, to be brave, and to never back down

There's no time to lose
We can't be silent
In a world that is dying to find out the truth
We've got the hope
We've got the answer
Let's lay down our all
With reckless abandon

lyric by Rebecca St James

Crocs on sales!

So... when do crocs have like 50% discounts...beside buying the second piece at 50 persent discount..? Well, yeah... they do!

I thought i just missed my chance on the 30th of October but then I did not. Today, it is my 2nd chance! So, I went to amcorp at 10am... to my surprise I see so many people there as if there is no one working today! Ah well, it is pretty normal for sales like that. So i continue waiting for my queue....to my surprise...there is no queue! lol!

So I decided to get my crocs at normal price.... I don't like crowding with sweaty people... hehehe...
So, I went off to get my vege and then i came back...hmmm..the crowd... still the same size but more excited! You can practically hear only girls screaming! LOL! guys...are u molesting them or you just don't scream? LOL!

I am not that type of girl would go gorilla style in crowd.. i am the soft type..ahem! LOL! I decide to leave and...maybe i'll just get it at normal price.... I have a great God... He will bless me one... :)

All Hail Barak Obama!

After all the long period of waiting, finally! Obama change the history! Becoming the first black US president! Yeah, the world is not so racist afterall...but is that true? I wonder

But then, congrates! Supporting you all the way!

You make my day

It is hard to start your day with sneezing... argh! It will just eventually leads to a flu day! Yeah... I was down with flu since yesterday. I am not so sure that my flu was that bad yesterday. I thought it was just a normal allergy. Until when I went out for dinner last night....The moment i step out the car...the sneezing got worst. I have to use up the whole pack of tissue to controll the dripping of the flu so that it will not drip in to my food!! EWE!!! Yeah...disgustin...

As I was walking back to the car, the flu was like horrible and sneezing is uncontrollable... My dear man (who have to juggle with umbrella, 1 laptop bag and 1 sling bag) suddenly just put his arm over and hold me close (sounds like a squid with many hands eh)...OOO... Just felt a little warm and safe... I almost sneeze my self off the road and knock on cars!! Or cars suppose to knock me down?? OO bad!!

The flu continues today...sneezing...yeah still on....vit C? yeah took alot and sleep alot....it doesn't go away!!!!!!

Buckle up guys!!

Are you updated? Do you know the current petrol price? Do you know who is Obama? or do you know what is happening in political world? Or you only know about fashion update?

LOL! I am not a very up to date for news kind of person but i am here to anounce something!!!! Starting on January onwards, the back passanger of your car (if u owns a car or a driver) or you little back passanger, would have to buckle up...that means..your back seat can only fit in 3 people for normal car. So if you like to fetch a lot of people, then start buying your van now!! If your car do not have a back seat belt do open your eyes and ears to see and hear when the gov anounce that we can fit the seat belts for free!!!! OO...interesting...

Petrol price

Hmmm.... Petrol price drop again today! Now Malaysians will be paying RM2.15 per l! O...at this moment of time...you don't see crazy ppl lining up for petrol and cause all the jam! (You see that the day before the petrol price hike!) Now... I think there will be cars breaking down by the side of the road because they cant wait to pump petrol at better price! SAVE MONEY!!! LOL!

Anyway, yeah..its a good news that it is going down...but how long more will it stay at low price? Only God knows...hehehe

ok gotta study now and later pump petrol!
tata!

My vacation

After 3 years of non stop studying, finally, I have my little break! It has been like ages since I last went for a vacation!

Last friday morning I depart from KL to Cameron highland. It was a long journey but it was great. Besides eating a lot of vege, corns, potatos and strawberries, we manage to go for some sight seeing in a private vege farm....great experience to trevel in a vege car! We were just in time to visit the most happening Pasar Malam in Brincang on saturday night. It was cold but the shopping in great. I bought so much that I don't even remember to buy anything for myself besides a scarf to make me warm! Silly me!

Sunday morning, we depart from Cameron and head to Penang. It is the first phase of wedding preparation. The meeting of the future in laws! Well, it is really great to see how they can click. We ate so much in Penang and I am still facing the stomach pain thinggi till now. The planning of wedding in Penang was a little hard but I am really trusting God for cash flow! It was way unexpected.... we almost fainted...hehe!

In conclusion, it was a great vacation eventhough it was really tiring! Small cucumber is very cute!

God is a great God

Lets continue from the previous post. My entire day was not good at all, but God does hears my prayer! I remember that David never stop praising God in good times and bad times. And so I took him as an example and do so. When I was heading for my Diner, my dad suddenly text me. Hmmm, what happen I wonder? Well, actually he just text to tell me that he has just bank in some money for me! YAY! God is really great! Praise does brings Gods blessing unto my life!

What an ironic day!

What do you do when you have two test on the same day, 3 assignment to hand in within the one or two days period? Due to the insufficient time, I was forced to study till late night which I hardly do now a days. I studied till 1am last night and it is not late for most teens. I tried to wake up as early as 7.30 am to continue my study but i failed. Yeah, snoozing was the cause! I woke up at 8.45 am because I turned off my alarm clock.

Dragging myself out of bed, I start my day by first reading my bible and pray. As I was about to start my breakfast, my brain reminds me to call my dad. So I did. Up to my surprise, me and my dad was not able to get into agreement with one another. Oh, how bad is that. My mom is not happy with me lately due to some wedding arangement. Well, keep that a side. It is really going up to my nerve now. But all thing became sunny again when my dear man brings breakfast to my house... Owh...so sweet! The day was pretty fine till when i was about to leave home for my test.

As I was about to leave my home, an indian guy appeared at my door step telling me that there will be a fogging for aedes mosquitoe. And i have to pay RM80 for the anual fee. I felt something was not very right. I am financially down and I do not have much money left with me. So i told him is it ok if I only pay RM10? Well, he agreed and took my RM10... then I looked at the reciept he gave me.... he was the pest control guy! I FELT EXTREAMLY CHEATED! Government don't even charge a cent for that! Before I leave i was like a mad girl running up and down to take in all my housemates clothes so that the mosquitoe medicine do not stain them. And there it goes. I sat for my first paper and it was still ok. By the time I finished my paper, it was almost 3pm. So i have to skip some parts and ran like half a kilometer away to sign another attendance for my photography class and ran back to the cafe to grab my lunch before I faint! ( I didn eat anything yesterday besides a big pau in the morning, fries for dinner and 2 biscuit to keep my brain going) And I have to swallow everything befor i reached the next class for test and suck my whole pack of milo in 5 minutes! OOO Brain FREEzE!
The second test was fine untill I came out from the test....my car passager back tyres went flat!! Haih.... Praise God my friends boyfriend came to save my car. When all is so done, the rain begin to pour and my car petrol is running out. Then I begin to think, do I have money for rainny days? Ah well, not much. I quickly drove to the petrol station and pump the last RM15 that is left in my wallet. The car almost breakdown when I was on my way to the station. Yeah indeed it was a rainny day.... it was actually raining and it is still raining now. And guess what!?

when I reached home...I could get my car parked in the house because my housemate parked her car too out... Ironic isn't it....

I was practically sick, my eye is tired my head is spinning, my body is aching and is like all happen at the same time... what is going on?

BUt indeed, I should praise God for his provision and how He send people when I was in my rainny days. I hope every ironic things should end by now and let me have a proper night ending.

What a day.....

Sun tanning anybody? This topic is like a hot topic lately.. It is not easy to find malaysian who loves to sun tan but then I do have a circle of friends who loves tanning! So is the color of Jess alba is on the top of the fashion hit now? Er... I do not know...but what I do know is that, I do enjoy nice brown skin once in a while.. I think it is pretty!

Amazing Grace.

When there is always something to write, I am always in Starbucks. I think it is an inspirational place for me and perfect place to get my brain working! But how often can I afford?

It has been almost four years now since I left home for studies. I thought that I am losing most of my friends due to conflict during form six and after that. All I left is only few of my guy dudes and one or two girlfriends that I constantly contacted. When I followed my fiancé for a gathering together with his primary school friends, I begin to think, where are all my primary dudes? It is great to see such a great friendship that is able sustain so long… maybe I am a bad friend..

The next day after the gathering, one of my oldest girlfriend found me on FB! It is like a bomb! I could express how happy I felt here but yeah…. My heart almost jumped out! From her I mange to link to quite a number of my primary dudes! Can you believe it! I am so into FB now!

It is amazing to see how much my friends have grown and how pretty they have become! So great to hear from them again! I think I lost them because we do not have hand phones when we were in primary! But one sad thing is that…I am here and they are back hometown… So looking forward to catch up with them!

No Car day!

First come, first serve is always the slogan for many shops! The earlier you go, the faster you will get your thing done...but this does not apply yesterday.

Theen and I send his car for service yesterday early morning. We thought, oh well, since it will not take long, then we must as well hang out in mamak and go across the road to see some lights for our house because the serviceman told us to collect the car at 1pm. When we went back at 1 pm.. the car is still on waiting list! O MY!

So then we decided to take a bus to SS2 for a little walk but there were no bus at all, and so finally we decided to hop into a taxi and whoala!!! here we go!! Due to the boredom, we both just walk in a bridal shop for fun to take a glimpse on the price and style. But we end up there for quite some time. The consultant insist me to try some of their dresses and so i did. It was beautiful....very different from shopping in Zara or Topshop! LOL!

After all the trying and asking, we finally escape from the shop and head to a furniture shop before heading back to Tmn Bahagia to take our car. We decide to walk from SS2 back to tmn bahagia due to the cloudy weather but it was not so cloudy after all... We were cought in the rain while trying to find our way back( we were lost in a housing area). Hop hop! here we go running in the rain searching for shelter! I prayed for a taxi to pass by that unkown area and he prayed for the rain to stop... guess who God listen to? Him of course!!!! So the rain stop and we manage to find out way out!

What a beautiful outing! er.. dating!! It is crazy but it was great! wat an adventure.....

Cell Group outing

When it comes to another cell group outing, it is the time to worry of what to do again besides eating! But this time, we plan to go for bowling.

We first went for carls for dinner. We almost finish up the whole bowl of salsa there... ok.. S8 loves to eat! After the food, we do a little exercise by walking to the bowling alley.

The game was great even though some people...er i mean one people...enjoy Telor-ing during the game... The drain of the bowling lane was really clean afther we left because we help them so sweep many times in a night!

So now u think we are all bad bowlers? We have never be telor gang... wai teng and Sarah!! the champ of all champ!!! They are the best bowlers and ofcourse the one an only champ...Wai theng!!

The night ended with a lot of TELORS and we went to mamak to celebrate our telors before we head home!!!

It was really a great outing...

Ninja turtle versus Ultraman! Who will win?

My friend and I have a little chat on our childhood favourite over lunch today and we both grow up in different country even though she is purely a Malaysian. Then we found there were so much different between growing up outside Malaysia which I don’t think I want to mention where.

Let start with Kindergarten. During those days, we are taught to write ABC and 123 but we were never really encouraged to read books. Indeed, my friend has a different learning. Besides what we have learnt they are compulsory to bring back a book from school to read which we really do not have this system here. She has read so many fairy tales and some we heard of but never even read. We here only read Peter and Jane if and only if our parents actually buy for us, which I am forced to read by my father. That is probably why not many people have the habit of reading here.

What about cartoon? Yeah, we grow up with almost the same cartoon and we thought Power Rangers were cool. On the other hand, there were no such things as Power Rangers and Ultraman in where she grew up. When she came to know about it, it was lame to her! HAHA!

Pretty funny huh? Coolest thing on one side of the world can be the lamest thing on the other side!

No matter what is the difference, God is still good all the time. I am glad I didn’t miss out at all during my childhood! I read books I like and toys I want! LOL!

Have you ever come to a point, where you suddenly stop and ask yourself... what are you doing? All the while you were on the track and everything seems so right. It is just so right till it seems just not so right but not wrong... confused?

Haih... I am confused with my feeling all in a sudden...not happy of my own choice and not happy of how i look and not happy with myself... Argh... I just think that i can do better...

How Big is Big?

How big is big? A cube of sugar is big to an ant but it is tiny to our eyes. RM 1 000 000 is big to our pocket but it is nothing to Bill Gates. Casting mount Kinabalu into the sea is big for us but it is never big in the dictionary of God.

Philippians in the Bible told us that “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” So then how big is big?

“Big” is a not standard scale. It lies in the eyes of the person who sees it. Big faith can conquer big things. So how big is your faith? The size of your achievement determines by the size of your faith. The size of your problem determine by the size of God in your life. The catch is the bigger your problem the smaller portion of God in your life. Refer back to “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me” no problem is too big for God. It all draws down to our faith in Christ, our endurance, our believe and our ability to imagine and to solve problems creatively.

How big is big?

How It Is Between Us (Sara Groves)

Woke up on the wrong side of the bed,
the wrong side of the room,
the wrong side of the world.
Can't put my finger on the mood.
It's not melancholy, anger or the blues.
I love my husband, my house, my job.
Couldn't be any better,
and really what else is there?
Then I realize I'm forgetting God,
and that's the root of all my misery.
Lord, first of all, how is it between you and me? .

Chorus:
How is it between us?
How is it between us?
When did I talk to you last,
and what has happened since?
How is it between us?
How is it between us?
When did I talk to you last,
and what has happened? .

When I wake up I am on my way,
reinventing the wheel and saving the day.
I have learned this lesson a thousand times,
I am the branch, and you are the vine.
Apart from you we are mice and men,
with our fancy dreams of grandeur and no way to get there.
Oh I can think about you now and then, o
r I can make a mark on eternity.

Lord first of all, how is it,
between you and me? .

Chorus .
So let the wicked prosper,
let the oceans roar,
let the mountains crumble,
and fall into the sea.
There's something more important weighing on my mind.
Lord first of all, how is it between you and me? .

The author:
When I heard this song it really impress something great in my heart. Sometime we are so content with what we have that we keep on persuing it and dwell in it. We successfully obtained what we want and it was all beautiful. But on the other hand we forget to put in the root of our life who bring all this good things to us, that is God. We somehow left Him out of the picture when we are enjoying our good times. It is like He only comes in the picture when we need Him.

We may be touched by God one day but we can also forget about what happened between you and God the other day.

Many I see they call them self Christians but persue their success and never intend to go to church. How can that be? God is no longer in the picture of their success....

I thank God for great success, great people around me and His great guidiance that carry me through mountains and valley!

Emerged!

29th, 30th and 31st August is the days where life is transformed and minds are changed! It is non other than Emerge conference! I was a great conference featuring guess speaker, founder of Emerge Singapore, Ps Kong Hee, stars from Taiwan (Liu Geng Hong), stars from Malaysia, Danny wan and many more! Life transforming testimonies are shared by actress and stars manager and many people were touched and many turn to Jesus. The awesom conference were spiced up with great praise and worship, lead by the Singapore team and not to forget, the great word from Ps. Kong.

This year Emerge was a little different from the year before. Beside games and competitions, we also have workshops- Praise and Worship, Social Ethical/grooming, children church and choosing the right partner.

Beside all that, one comman gold that all clusters is fighting for since day one of emerge is the Emerge overall cluster Champion. And this year champion goes to non other than MINT and they won the Perade Of School (Cheerleading) competition as well! Local U have the best leap compared to last year! Thanks to great leadership from Nickey and the team spirit from the entire cluster!

Let the Emerge fire continue to burn and bring it to the world!

Metamorphosis

Getting a year older is great when you are reaching 21 but then when it exceeds 21 it is like...dilema! The older you get, the more responsibily is stack on you. But what is really killing me is the increasing of my age number. It is like I am reaching mid twenty in two years time and man! Aging is on its way!

To make myself feel good for getting another year older, I decide to give myself a nice trip to a hair saloon. Usually, not much changes for the previous years. I would either cut a little shorter but still the same style, treatment or either rebonding or maybe all the three. BUt then this year, I decided to go all out! Being fasionable is bieng daring to try!

Now i have my egyption hair-do that makes my face looks smaller and much more edgy... The next attemp was I colour my hair slightly a little brighter and tidy it with rebonding. This whole transformation took me more than a week to put it all together... which means I go to and fro the hair saloon 3 times! LOL!

Another amazing stuff that i did for a lazy chick like me is that i have my eye brow shaped! Yay! once and for all..... I got the killer look again! LOL!

Thinking for storing up some new trends in my closet but I do not have the time for shopping yet. But you know what.... mega sales is ending soon!!!! HELP!

Being a young engage lady among friends is like wow! But to go to campus as an engage lady.... Hmmm.... I 'll have to get use to that.... HAHA!!

It has been almost a week now since my birthday. I am still asking myself am I really sure about this? My parents were pretty excited right now and all my friends were in excited states as well. As for me, it is like a transition to a new phase of life. It is beautiful but it is scary at the same time.

Right now it is not just about planning my own future, but it is a part of my own and a part of our future together. Sounds old huh?

Anyway, EMERGE FIRE is everywhere now and I can’t wait to see Local U win the Emerge! Many competitions have passed and it is really hot! But it will get hotter on the 29th, 30th, and 31st!

Alright I have to go study now!
Sinning off..
The writer

I am what?

It has been two days passed and I am still walking in fantasy. I am what? It is too real to be true, but it is so true that it is not a fantasy, but it sounds too far from true but it is real. Yes, wedding bells will be ringing in a year or two!

Never thought I would be the first among my course mates and if I am, I did not expect that it will happen that fast! But hey! He proposed to me on my 23rd birthday!

Birthday 282m or 948ft Above the Ground

19 August 2008! It is the date of my 23rd birthday and this year it is an unforgettable one. On 12am sharp entering 19 August 2008, my sister celebrated for me in a bar. It has been years I last celebrated with her. It was not the hang over kind of celebration, so I manage to get up early to catch my super early morning bus back to KL.

So, how did I spend my birthday? Half of my day was sleeping in the bust and the whole afternoon cleaning my room! The real celebration starts in the evening.

After picking up Theen Kin from his work place, head to the dining venue. He did not tell me where so I do not know where. KL was not as jam as it used to be around 7pm, you know why? Simply because it is my birthday! HAHA! When we reach KL, Theen Kin told me that we are going to eat in Coconut Tree (some place near Pudu Raya). In my mine was like…er ok. It is pretty easy to tell lies on where we are heading in KL because I have no idea about the roads in KL. After all the lies, turning and U-turning, we suddenly end up at the entrance of “Menara Kuala Lumpur”.

A concrete coconut tree huh? So there it was, dinner at the revolving restaurant in KL tower, 948ft above the ground with a lift that bring you up there in 58second.

Seri Angkasa is the name of the restaurant. It was a beautiful place with good food, good view and perfect music. It is like my most ideal dinner to have on my birthday:- a little bit of jazz (my fav!), good food and good view.

Looks like Theen Kin remember what I like. HAHA!

So both enjoy eating and ate so much that we feels like fasting the next day. I tried raw shells and it didn’t even make it down my throat! It was disgusting!

But it is still a good try…

Some where around the desert moment, they were just playing some love songs and we were trying to digest our food and enjoying the view of the majestic twin tower. The Theen Kin say, why not we get the bill now. Well, ok. So I turn out to get a final glimps of the beautiful night view of the city before I leave. When I turn back, there it was, CHENG CHENG CHENG!

A cute little ring in a big box and he say “WILL YOU MARRY ME?”

The song, endless love was playing and my mind just went blank! Ok, lets keep it a little more romantic, I said yes.

Things are going faster than usual....

The best test to get a confirm approval is just to call my mom! And so he did, he talked to my mom and she was ok with it. Same goes to my dad! So I guess…. I am a big girl now! HAHA!

Photography

Lately, I am a little into photography. Just amazed by how much I have learn to use a DSLR camera and also to understand the basics of taking a picture. It is really beautiful. Every picture should tells a story and a story that captured peoples heart.

Having interest in taking pictures was my favourite since young (around 12 yrs old since my dad trust me with his camera). They camera doesn't really left my side eversince. I enjoy searching for a perfect frame to fit my pictures and going places with nice scenary but never understand the basic of it. Ah.. since I now know a little more of the basic, I think it will really help me a lot to improve my hobby!

What amaze me when I was learning the basic of photography is the difference between a photographer and a camera operator. Most of us are camera operator. We se nice pictures, we will just press the button and snap. We see something cute, we just snap! But photographer is different. They do snap pictures but the consider the arrangement of the back ground, lighting, line elements and a story line. They paint a picture in their vision before snaping the pictures! They fore see the outcome before taking it. Hmmm... I am so inspired!

In life it is pretty much the same. To achieve success we muct first visualise it and then walk the vision. Yeah, what pastor say is really true, we need a vision in order to grow...

I am working towards my first DSLR but due to the high price, i think a little compact camera of my own should be good for now!

Last Thursday Cell Group was a blast! I might not be feeling very good at the beginning due to my emo moments but the closing does cheer me up.

My emo moments?
As I am walking towards the end line for my degree, many thoughts begins to fly pass your mind picture by picture. It all sounds nice and well plan, then disagreement and consequences starts bombarding you pictures. Then it makes you so confuse for a moment and thought of jumping off Petronas Twin Tower. And the next is like to pursue what I want in life and forget what I have set up already, and this is very serious. I just could not think straight because if there is any topic brought up regarding this issue I will easily get really angry and mad and sometimes even fight will happen…God help me to control my life!
A usual thing that come to my mind when I was a kid is that “when I grow up, I want to go to school then to University to get a degree and then Masters and then PHD to fulfil my knowledge in life and the pursue my dream to be a air stewardess, designer or maybe Einstien.” But reality is far from all this…
For now, I would decide not to think of what is ahead but how to complete my degree with flying colours but I am still confused. My next hope is probably doing my Masters in Physics again but this time title “Plasma Physics”. What say you?

Cell Group.
It is always the best place to hang out and feel wonderful. The cell kick off with The Watermelon game by Lee Na and she just makes everyone confused and start laughing. Great Job! Feeling a little better, I put a little smile on my face. After all the laughter, we prepare ourselves for praise and worship. It was awesome! The assurance of the faithfulness of God was there with me. After the praise and worship, it was the praise report time, and then to the word and end with offering. After the offering, we have refreshment. HUNGRY! It was a pretty healthy refreshment from Keng Fong and Karin. We have chicken sandwich and orange juice! To add some unhealthy stuff, we decided to get Baskin Robins ice cream to go with it since it is 31st of JULY!!! Sadly, we didn’t manage to grab them because it was too late when we decide to grab it. The queue was too long. So the guys who were incharge to buy the ice-cream came up with a wonderful idea – “let’s get sundae cone from McDonalds!”. So they get like I do not know how many cones… I think 12cone and jump into the car happily. When they reach back the cell group location, it was half melted and their hands and car was so so covered with ice-cream! The best ending, we all end up slurping the ice-cream by the roadside while laughing at the crazy idea.
Very classic memory…. Slurping sundae cone at 11pm by the roadside.

I may have this blog for ages but this is the first and the very first time posting on this blog. Hopefully I don’t get bored over this blog.

“The author of my life is me because God laid choices in front of me and it is up to me to choose. In short, He set the guide line and I compose the essay!”